After submitting my resignation at the bank, the first thing I did was got my hair color changed.
Three hours later, I was back at the office to sign the handing/taking over docs and got some pretty flattering reviews. I was feeling fantastic about my (impulsive) decision when a friend commented that women generally change something drastically about themselves when they are going through some sort of emotional turmoil or significant life change; this, she said, is our way of dealing with or creating change. That pricked my little bubble of euphoria. It was time for self-confrontation:
"Prepare, already. Things are going to change; there is going to be uncertainty. Won't have a monthly income credited on the 25th anymore. Will not have a reason to get out of bed till midday but won't have an excuse to slather my eyes with kajal
either. Pushed yourself out of the rut you did, but there is every chance you will fall right back, stuck in a deeper one this time."
Now I go over my behavior and see a pattern: When I got engaged, I got a nose piercing. After a tragic miscarriage, I changed my last name on Facebook and started using my husband's. After having my daughter, I cut my hair and got a bob. I plan to get colored contacts marking the advent of a new career.
Do you recall that movie where a woman chopped off her hair right after she finds herself in the dumps and just before she's taking a life-changing step? Is it some sort of defense mechanism, Freudian displacement perhaps, to deal with the situation; or it could be that we try to get back into the driving seat of our lives, by proving that we choose the direction and the results. Or we simply make an outward, visible change to mark our success in an internal battle... I'm still working on this.
Ponder, Yonder
P.S. I cannot think of any concrete reason for any of the abovementioned actions. Then, they felt right. For the record, I do not regret them now.
P.P.S. Completely irrelevant to the topic but Google (Blogger) does not accept Facebook as a word. They do hate each other. Lemme check Word....OK, Google accepted, Facebook not.
this article makes me wanna get a haircut too....hopefully something dramatic..
ReplyDeleteGo right ahead. And send me pictures. :)
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